A Jump Into Sudden Meditation
By Oleg Moskvine
Do you need to use meditation methods to come to yourself, to dive inwards? Can you find yourself only through practicing meditation techniques studied before? As to me, it is not necessary! In your ordinary life you can have the glimpses of no-mind, mindfulness, totality, silence or whatever you can call this divine phenomenon. What is important in these moments is that you don’t prepare or calm your mind with different meditation techniques. You don’t even plan any meditation. You don’t project any results. You don’t even think about any meditation at all. And, strangely enough for your disturbed mind, these beautiful glimpses happen on their own without any efforts.
Say, when for no reason and for no goals you are walking in the park and suddenly… a yellow leaf starts slowly falling from a tree… You stop your walking, wondering for a second, watching this zigzagging fall... It falls… falls…falls… And something unusual happens to you: your awareness shifts from the mind to no-mind. You become completely immersed in this miraculous atmosphere of the dance of the dropping
leaf. You are there in this dance! You are not in the past in your thoughts… You are not in the future in your thoughts. You are totally there. Time stops. Thinking stops. In this atmosphere you become pulled into inside. A sudden jump into yourself happens without any efforts! You are pulled into the centre from the periphery of your life.
Who are you at this moment? Where is your personality at this moment? Are you a man or woman, John or Susan, father or mother, husband or wife, daughter or son, boss or worker? No answer… Personality disappears. But the authentic feeling «You are» exists! To recover your personality you should come back from the inner into the outer, from the centre to the periphery, right? Do you follow me, what I mean?
Watch what changes and what doesn’t change during these moments. Watch what disappears during your witnessing and what deepens. Just a bit of watchfulness may bring so much realization of the nature of things! It can be experienced anywhere and anytime… The breeze touching you on the sea beach… The beautiful song of a bird… The aroma of a blossoming tree... The waltz of white clouds… Any event may bring this
atmosphere… Suddenly due to any reason your consciousness starts shifting from the thinking dimension into no-thinking dimension, from the mind to no-mind.
When for a single moment your mind stops running… when for a single moment your thoughts dissolve at their own accord… when the infinite blue sky of individuality beyond your mind’s projections appears… when for a single moment you encounter yourself… Then the rejoicing in finding yourself, the rejoicing in realizing yourself arises from nowhere and at the same time from everywhere! You find yourself as the integral
part of the dancing eternal existence. And this revelation, first of all, is not intellectual. You didn’t prepare this moment. You didn’t project this experience. It was your existential inner revelation. And now you don’t need to believe in this experience. You know it personally!
And then… Crash! The atmosphere of the miraculous dimension of watchfulness disappears. Your mind starts controlling your life again. Your mind starts immediately bringing full control over you and this experience by logically interpreting it and reducing it to ordinary explanations. It doesn’t matter… Let your mind work now. Let your mind
take control now. It doesn’t matter… This first glimpse gives you the amazing experience that the watcher exists beyond the mind. Well, even if it was only a single moment, even if it was a glimpse… you will never forget it.
Now you existentially know that beyond your mind something higher exists. It is you. It is your individuality. You have always been in this dancing existence. And you will always be in this divine dimension. And these are not only words for you. You know it personally. What a blissfulness of life it is simply to be, to live, to breathe, to love and to realize your interdependence with the aliveness! Nothing to add! Dive into the energy of life!